This has been a handful of a semester. I honestly feel like if I get through this semester with my head above water then I can pretty much do anything. It has honestly been going that way. I have mentioned before that I haven't ever not cared about grades. In fact I've generally always done well in school. And now that I'm paying for school it is more intimidating to do well cause otherwise that is a lot of money that I will have to pay. This semester has been pushing me to so many limits I wonder how I get through and done with everything I have to do. Taking 18 credits is 6 classes in college for me. 5 of them are generals an one is a pre req's for my major. Then on top of that I apprentice once a week with my mentor and try and improve my skills further. Which is more homework that needs to get done. Which is fine. And has been fine up to now. My grades are doing well. Overall high b's and a's. With one c. I'm proud of myself for doing this well with so much on my plate. As well as having to change to 40 hours a week at work just has been piling up. And lastly we are a month away from our wedding!! So we are really getting down to crunch time. But it's been a real crunch time because we are fast approaching finals season. And with finals season comes finals. And with finals comes stress and studying and hoping that the grades stay above so that I don't have to retake classes. It's just intimidating and I feel ok now but every time I think about it I just start getting nervous and anxious that I'm gonna mess it up somehow. And I think the scariest part are the papers cause I've always struggled with those. Struggled with writing them. Struggled with doing them well. Just all around strugglefest. And I know that is where most of my points will get docked.

Anyways like I said. In a month from now we will know where we are standing. An if I get through it all and an still alive. We will be in such great shape.

Since I wrote the above paragraphs it has been a couple of days, I have turned in a couple of the huge assignments that I had. and It is so much of a relief that is done. I feel good enough that I did well, but it's more that it is done that is getting me feeling good.

We also got a lot of wedding stuff done this weekend.  We finished all of the invitations pretty much. There are a few stragglers that we are remembering but we got the big bulk done, as well as the sign in book and started a sign that we want to get done.  Needless to say that the stress levels are going down for now, just finishing up life as a student for this semester. and then getting married and taking a little break. It's going to be so fun!